Drunkalog
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What it was like
Christmas 1940 - DUI Car crash that scarred Mom
Toddler liked booze sips from adults drinks - 5 years or so
Dad crashed car, set field on fire with fireworks
Geographic to Tahoe
Mom’s DUI Claimed printshop fumes
Geographic to Seattle
Nightly drinking, functional alcoholics
Space Needle Dinner,
Windsor Vista - about 4 years
San Juan Island Boat Trip
Dad passed out every night, mom “controlled drinking”
My first full on drunk to pass out
Geographic to Duvall - The Omley’s
Tolt HS - Met Donna, First love
Divorce, family split, Leigh to Louisianna
Lendemain Apartment with Mom, Ollala, AA, Alateen
Redmond Apartment with Mom, Full Flight, Drug Dealer
Geographic back to Sacramento, MJ Dealer
Lynn Omley role model, outlaw heavy drinker
GTA/DUI Golf Cart arrest, HS drop out
Public Intoxication arrest
US Army, 3.2 beer, DUI in Colorado Spgs, BCD & Leavenworth prison
19 years old, back to Sacramento, not welcome home, junk business
Sally, Infidelity due to my drinking, Sink a boat, get a DUI,
Geographic back to Seattle under false name
Born Again, Wendy, controlled drinking
Back to Sacramento, came clean, jail
5th Ca DUI Geographic to AZ
6 years no DL, drinking accelerating
NY Eve 1989 called Donna, infidelity in Vegas a few weeks later, no booze
Left family for Donna, she insisted on sobrietyRecovery
Outpatient Treatment, first adult AA Meeting, not for me!
Geographic to Utah, DUI, Rejected by Donna
Back to Arizona, married Suzy for a place to live, descending into depths of despair
Rented a room from Tom, his family soon learned to hate me
Rented house with Dwight in Mesa, last drunk began with Nyquil cold medicine
What Happened
Surrendered to Apache Trail Group
At about 90 days Donna visited to see what was up, met my sponsors wife and joined us
A lot of meetings, sometimes 3 or 4 a day, home group activities
Trust God, Take out the garbage, make amends, help others
Taking Action begins with Step 4 - the gritty details, written on paper, first concrete proof
Selfish and/or Self-Centered there is a difference!
Fearful
Envious
Prideful
Greed or avarice, I want yours
Lustful, infidelity
Gluttonous, more than my fair share
Lazy, easier softer way
Vengeful, get revenge
Step 5 tell someone else, unload that burden
Step 6 become willing to trust god some more
Step 7 humbly ask and trust!
Step 8 become willing to make amends - see step 4 & 5
Step 9 Make amends, unload that burden!
Steps 10-12 become a “working part of” my mind
Service, monthly dance, drunk wagon, chair meetings, sponsor guys, phone duty
What it is like now
The “great obsession” to control and enjoy drinking alcohol has been removed.
Normal living problems, sporadic Spiritual growth Beyond AA
Road Less Traveled
Professional hypnotherapy
Moment of clarity, out of HVAC biz
Sweat Lodge, Native American Church
Peyote Foundation, The Raid
Mexico for a month, Huichol ceremony
Political activism, hemp and kenaf
Hemp US Flag, California to market them, Mom sick
Back home, care for mom, medical cannabis activism
5150 for protesting Iraq invasion
Duke, Genesis 1:29
MMA, Cannabis Books
Prostate cancer 2009, Proton beam complete in January 2010
March 2010 Practical Cycle, IChing, Carl Jung, Road Less Traveled again
2015 Met Hong online, China 4 times, married Feb 14, 2017
September 2019, Hong to China, then Pandemic
2021 PSA Rising, radiation, business struggling
May 2022, Hong returns and we struggle, I start attending AA again, PSA rising again
August 2022, closed PC showroom
April 2023, enjoying semi-retired life, enlarging my spiritual life by revisiting Jungian analysis and enrolled in https://thisjungianlife.com/join-dream-school/